NYU got off to the right start by having such a beautiful campus here in Florence; it was truly a treat getting to see such a stunning villa every weekday.
The most rewarding aspect of this trip? Seeing more of the world, maybe? I’ve never been to any other country but Mexico (Tijuana, doesn’t really count), and it was such a strange assimilation, putting together everything I had imagined with the reality of it all. I always had an image of Italy in my mind, and finally putting it together with the real thing was definitely jarring. I don’t think literally seeing
Italy was actually my most rewarding aspect, but it definitely was one of the most educational experiences of my life so far. I’ve seen and experienced more of the world than I mentally can comprehend, and that’s a very important thing.
Spending time with my girlfriend was probably the most important part of this trip to me. Italy was my time to experience something completely new, and share that experience with another. This trip has been the independence of a free man, coupled with the responsibility of one tasked to take care of another. It’s been quite a ride.
One thing I lacked this trip was my ability to really organize and plan my days in any efficient manner whatsoever—even days that were slated to be “free days” were sometimes squandered or poorly planned because of my incompetence for taking action. My habit for procrastination got worse as I lived abroad because I believe that, since I’m leaving soon, I can leave a path of unhandled, unorganized, unfinished shit in my wake that will all be wiped away once I return to my cozy home in America. I wonder if that’s the way mot people feel? Are they as disorganized as me?
What was one really big thing I learned? Ah yes, a lesson I learned while watching The Matrix one Sunday morning in Rome (we decided to watch movies instead of go and see the Pope give Mass). I discovered the potential for the question “Why?” Probably the best question you can ask yourself, as it pierces the very heart of your existence as a human being. You commit actions, with or without thinking, and then you question your own behavior. “Why? Why did my being do this action?” Not really related to Italy, but it did happen while abroad. Guess that counts for something. Right?
If I had actually grown this semester, as I proclaimed I would in my first blog post, then this situation would not have happened. These posts woud have been done earlier, my writing would be more informative, my words more wise. I accomplished nothing I set out to do. I didn't solidify what I wanted to do, I didn't lead a tour group, I didn't become more responsible. I became more dependent on money. I became incredibly lazy and procrastinating. I've become hopeless. I've been waiting for oblivion, for travelling abroad to end, I've been waiting to return to my home, my womb, my cave, my temple of brooding. Maybe not so dramatic, but you get the point.
If I had to keep a journal of my time abroad again, I would do it in a way that it was always worth reading. I would chronicle my changes, my constant questioning "Why?" of myself. I did not do that this time around. Maybe next time. Always maybe next time.
It's been beautiful staying here in Florence. From the first morning I woke here with my girlfriend, it's been the greatest vacation I have ever had in my life. We've lived lives in this 4 month period. We've fought in the streets, drank too much wine, ran down cobblestone streets at night, eaten keilbasa at international markets, toasted under the moonlight, toured exotic islands, swam in crystal blue oceans, visited ancient ruins, and been exposed to more types of people from different walks of life than I've ever encountered. It's been a mosaic of the modern world, all here for the same purpose--to vacation, to have fun, to enjoy what we've been given (or rather, what we've taken). To hell with change. I've had a fantastic time and I will never forget any of it. Change? I've changed more than I even know. And that's when you know that you've really got something going on. At least, I'd like to think so.