Saying goodbye is hard to do and after a year in London, it's a sad reality
I want to say I'll see you soon, London but to be quite honest, I don't know when I'll see you next. I live in Los Angeles, California and the twelve hour and thousand dollar plane ride isn't something I'll do on a whim. Sometimes I've said out of anger that I wished I were home, either in New York or in Los Angeles but now that it's actually happening I can truly say, I'm devistated. London has become the city I wake up to, it's so engrained into the way I live my life. I've longed for America at times, however I'd be lying if I didn't say I shed a tear each time I think of leaving.
I'm staying in London a week after school ends because I have serious seperation anxiety. I don't want to get out of the rain and stop being polite to absolutely everybody. I knnow as soon as I go home, I'll be wishing I could hop on that next flight to Heathrow. This time I've spent in London has been fun, filled with going out, working hard and making new friends. However, I think the real reason why I'm so sad to leave is because spending a year in London has allowed for me to really self reflect. I've been out of my norm and teetered on the edge of my comfort zone at times and this has caused me to spend a lot of time thinking about things like my future and my personal goals.
I also enjoy that London is a smaller campus. I feel like I have a common room to meet with friends in, it's very unlike the larger network of a community at NYU New York. Next year I'll be in Shanghai and I can't imagine what that goodbye will be like. For me, this goodbye is a point from which I am about to start a whole new challenge: China. In that regard I guess this experience isn't over because it's apart of a greater experience that is my studying abroad during college. With that said, I will miss London horribly.
This blogging course has really been an outlet for me and will serve as something I will keep that has documented my time here. Looking back on past posts causes me to think about the mindset I was in during that time of my life and just how crucial it is to have some form of record for who you were at one moment in time. I think this class and London as an experience has really afforded me the opportunity to think about who I am as a college student, which is a fleeting four years of one's life.
The day I leave London for real I don't think I will be able to say see you later because in reality this is a goodbye. I won't be coming here to live again (at least not that I know of right now) and no vacation or business trip could ever emulate or amount to the amazing experience I've had here this past year.
Thank you all for your wonderful posts, they've really helped me to see what the rest of the world is like all while discovering my own travels.
I hope you guys have enjoyed your studies abroad and if you're fancing some class, culture and cynisism..... come to London!